17.11.14

I'LL GROW BACK GOOD IF I BREAK

Photos by, Allison Reaves Photography.A continuum of my shoot with Allison, we had coffee this last Friday morning at the Ace. One of those people I can chat with and feel the inspiration jitters the rest of the day. Good vibes coming from her soul and I appreciate that. Below is a non-outfit, related re-hash of things in my week! 

This past week I went and saw Penny & Sparrow and it was truly an amazing experience. Their album Struggle Pretty was released a month before my breakup, and I connected with Andy and Kyle's words like I haven't ever really before. The emotional trauma I went through was exacerbated by lies, and finding out through the grapevine I had been cheated on. It's a shitty thing to go through and I'm still trying to deal with it.

Nearly every song on the album pierces me in the gut and I haven't been able to listen to some of them without crying. That didn't change when they immediately opened their set at Mississippi Studios with their songs Honest Wage and Fantine. I had taken out my camera to snap a picture of them as they were walking up to the stage and immediately put it away, the first strum of Honest wage and I knew I was about to be the one balling in public. 

And I was right at the start. Silently. Trying not to cry with all the muscles in my face and just letting the tears flow. I'm not good at sharing my emotions, or understanding them even. But this is just one of those things where I quite literally have no control of them. No, they weren't tears of joy, they were of extreme heartache. But that's okay. It's a good release and a way to connect with others I don't typically allow myself to do very often. 


I'm a very private person, I know that. But I couldn't share their music without also sharing a part of why I love it so much, and I know many can relate. I am a real person behind pretty outfit pictures and my seemingly stern face. 

So, listen to their music. My favorites are Fantine, Bread and Bleeding, Stoic, and Rattle. Basically the whole album who am I even kidding it's perfect. Plus, Andy Baxters voice is the best I've heard in forever and Kyle Jahnke's man bun is exceptional and I like his blazers. Maybe you have a reason to take some solace in their words like I have. 


Wearing: JCrew Toothpick Denim, Target Flannel Shirt, Topshop Mila oxford (sold out, here's similar) Vintage hat (similar), Timex Watch