Monday, November 24, 2014

SHOP WINTER



We all do it. Have that sudden urge or the feeling that you just need something new in your closet to spice it up or just to finally get rid of some of the old. Even if it's just one or two new things. This is when I peruse online and scope out what I'm looking for, fill up my online carts... and let them sit. Rarely do I muster up the commitment to enter my card number, enter my shipping address and hit purchase. Mostly because definitely cannot afford things.

But that doesn't mean I keep away. I usually torture myself by looking at all the beautiful clothes online, constantly going back to those one or two items I really want until the lust fades and I no longer want them that badly. That's just me. My version of self control is twisted, I get it. 

However, I constantly see hauls and chat about Sheinside from some of my favorite youtubers. So, I finally took a gander to the site and WHAT. Where have I been? I haven't purchased anything myself, so the quality may or may not be shit. But, if you're choosy and patient seems like you could score some rad stuff... Which is what inspired pretty much this entire shopping post and my current November wish list. 


















Monday, November 17, 2014

I'LL GROW BACK GOOD IF I BREAK

Photos by, Allison Reaves Photography.A continuum of my shoot with Allison, we had coffee this last Friday morning at the Ace. One of those people I can chat with and feel the inspiration jitters the rest of the day. Good vibes coming from her soul and I appreciate that. Below is a non-outfit, related re-hash of things in my week! 

This past week I went and saw Penny & Sparrow and it was truly an amazing experience. Their album Struggle Pretty was released a month before my breakup, and I connected with Andy and Kyle's words like I haven't ever really before. The emotional trauma I went through was exacerbated by lies, and finding out through the grapevine I had been cheated on. It's a shitty thing to go through and I'm still trying to deal with it.

Nearly every song on the album pierces me in the gut and I haven't been able to listen to some of them without crying. That didn't change when they immediately opened their set at Mississippi Studios with their songs Honest Wage and Fantine. I had taken out my camera to snap a picture of them as they were walking up to the stage and immediately put it away, the first strum of Honest wage and I knew I was about to be the one balling in public. 

And I was right at the start. Silently. Trying not to cry with all the muscles in my face and just letting the tears flow. I'm not good at sharing my emotions, or understanding them even. But this is just one of those things where I quite literally have no control of them. No, they weren't tears of joy, they were of extreme heartache. But that's okay. It's a good release and a way to connect with others I don't typically allow myself to do very often. 


I'm a very private person, I know that. But I couldn't share their music without also sharing a part of why I love it so much, and I know many can relate. I am a real person behind pretty outfit pictures and my seemingly stern face. 

So, listen to their music. My favorites are Fantine, Bread and Bleeding, Stoic, and Rattle. Basically the whole album who am I even kidding it's perfect. Plus, Andy Baxters voice is the best I've heard in forever and Kyle Jahnke's man bun is exceptional and I like his blazers. Maybe you have a reason to take some solace in their words like I have. 


Wearing: JCrew Toothpick Denim, Target Flannel Shirt, Topshop Mila oxford (sold out, here's similar) Vintage hat (similar), Timex Watch


Monday, November 10, 2014

TO GRANDMOTHERS HOUSE WE GO

Snapped some photos in the small town of Dallas, Oregon while visiting my grandma this past Saturday. I always really love visiting G-ma, she's a collector of awesome things. Her walls are filled with vintage and antique perfume bottles, dishes, hat boxes, and jewelry. There's lots of inspiration to gain at her house. I mostly like to just sit, stare, take naps and eat candy whenever we go to her house. Also laugh my pants off because my grandma is hilarious.  

Anyways, it's always really important for me to reflect. I'm a natural introvert. A lot of my time is spent alone, reflecting and sometimes obsessively thinking about my past and future. Looking to myself to magically find the answers to life's unanswerable queries. That's something I don't really like about myself. Being an INTJ, it's hard to living in the moment unless every other part of your life is in place and where you want it. 


It's a work in progress to get there. But short moments like these on this blog allow me to just stop and think about what I'm doing this very moment. It helps to affirm my own thoughts. I sort of crawl and mosey around clouds of inspiration, planning and goals before I make a move. And I feel like I'm sort of in the weird space where I need to rediscover what my hobbies are, and what that move is supposed to be.  

Maybe recent grads feel the same way? Before it was school, work and hobbies. They were all separate. Now, much of what I do at work is everything I did in school combined with my Internet hobbies. Those interests of mine are fulfilled on a daily basis, and I'm super appreciative of that. But somehow there's this new blank space for something new— and I'm trying to figure out what that new thing is. 


Maybe I have readers who can relate. Maybe I'm just rambling on about myself and tl;dr. Either way, if you can relate and you did read my words, let me know in the comments! It's Monday and I hope everyone has a fantastic week! 

H&M Boots, Asos Jeans, Target Plaid Shirt, G-Pa's old straw hat (similar, similar).